My Cup of Tea

A fiercely horrifying conversation that was blown out of a proportion. I never thought I would experience such humiliating encounter again and hear those vilifying and disparaging attack I already suffered more than three years ago. It happened all because of misinterpreting  the real context of the conversation. But it's too useless to press my point. It's useless especially if you won't be heard fairly, because all they do is allow anger to reign.  So I just lift it to God. I maintained my position on the issue, I did not slander their community. What I was expressing was my honest observation that "that" preacher seemed like "tiptoeing" into the other side of the ministry. It's not a remote possibility because most preachers now are creating their own group or community and established their own style of evangelical mission. These preachers insisted they are Catholics but what confuses me is their actuations. Why creating a group when there

Long Live Pope Francis! His election surprised everyone, including me, I thought the Cardinal Electors would choose someone younger as advanced age was the center of Pope Emeritus, Benedict XVI, resignation, not knowing that this person as a Cardinal has a remarkable background and inspiring lifestyle. A day after he was elected, the official site of the Vatican published a detailed story about his life and why he chose to reign under the mystical name of Francis. It was only then that I understood why God allowed him to win the Papal election. The Conclave follows a very sacred process of casting votes with a severe punishment given to those who will be caught divulging details of the conclave, it's the best-kept secret process of the centuries old existence of the Catholic Church and Vatican Palace, known with its legendary secrecy, made sure no one will eavesdrop at the sacred deliberation. Each Cardinal elector will be under oath before God and the Holy Bible upon e

Our comprehensive exam in MBA started last night and it was tough! Our first exam was Human Behavior in Organization (HBO) and oh God!It was very challenging, there were only 6 questions but it seemed my brain labored hard to press hard core ideas. Thank God our exam was held at the computer laboratory and we were allowed to type our answers. Had it not for the computer my output might be very worst. My earnest wish now is to finish this very exhausting ordeal so that I can create an itinerary for my Hongkong trip!My mind is so preoccupied with this first travel abroad that sometimes I could not concentrate studying notes on each subject, excitement swirled in during the day!hehehe. But I want to stay focus on my examination as much as possible, I don't want to make a "repeat performance" with some of the subjects it's too costly and I cannot afford to squander my budget, I am saving hard for my foreign trip, so help me God, I am really asking for your heave

Yeah!!!Finally got a nerve to book a foreign trip online today and yaaay s o very lucky to get a low rate for this Hongkong trip! My eagerness to travel abroad this year is due to the fact that my passport will expire by 2014 and it's a great shame to renew it at DFA without a foreign embassy stamp hahaha! I've been praying hard for this trip and God finally allowed circumstances to intervene to make this desire realized soon. So now finally, yes finally! I can visit the gorgeous Hongkong comes June 1. It's super exciting. I'll be travelling with friends in the university and we'll be taking a round trip from Davao to Clark to Hongkong and vice versa. But as of now, I don't let my excitement overwhelmed me because I still have to face grueling days of taking comprehensive exams.

The most stressful moment of my life, so far, started last Tuesday... I'd never felt such tension before! It's the day one of our comprehensive examination review and my mind clouded with so many stressful thoughts. Our comprehensive exam covers six MBA subjects: Human Behavior in Organization, Managerial Statistics, Marketing Management, Production Management, Financial Management and Strategic Managament and our compre review is divided into two weeks with 2 days allotted for each subject. What made me so very stressed is the trend in the comprehensive exam result of MBA at AdDU -- only few takers managed to pass on the first take, waaaaah! Since it is very tedious, time consuming and very costly to undergo a re-take (and I am taking a foreign trip abroad comes June), I am focusing, really focusing hard to pass all  the subjects in just one take. And I am praying hard now as if I never prayed in my whole life hehehe! So yesterday, to dart my mind temporarily to ot

For the past months, years, decades perhaps, I made to believe myself I am a great failure, that I am worthless. The inspirational messages I heard and read about "valuing oneself" and "believing in your worth" just did not sink in my mind. It felt like I was bound to fail. So I hesitated doing things that might highlight failure.  This self-defeating concept gradually molded my perception about myself that eventually defined my journey. I was too scared to move away from my comfort zone, too terrified to try on many things which hampered my personal growth in the long run. This negative definition about myself intensified when I suffered one dreadful rejection episode in my life. It  sank my self-confidence and deepened my belief that I am not good on anything. It became a wound that badly damaged my self-esteem. But time heals all wounds, so they say. And for all those times that I was agonizing in pain over a failed "dream" I'd come to

It's the last week of February. Nothing extraordinary to look forward to except that I'll be facing another challenge--taking comprehensive exam. This is my last battle of survival in the graduate school and hopefully God will grant my prayer. I don't want to undergo a terrible episode of retaking some of the subjects, it's too costly and tedious. This month is just so stressful. I have to endure several misconceptions about myself but I tried not to be affected with animosities, as if nothings happened, as if everything is fine, but deep inside, I am bleeding, asking the same redundant question I kept murmuring for the past years "Oh God, what is it again!". Everything messes up. But I have to keep telling myself that tomorrow is another day and it's not going to be like this for the rest of the year. I was just misunderstood. Was I? Or I was just too defensive, trying to rationalize dreary things only myself cared. Yes, I am often misunderstood