My Cup of Tea

In life, people have different quests,  everyone is looking and striving to get that little big thing, no one entertains defeats because people expected us to rise above the stars. Society expects us to be more competitive and feisty, courageous and brisk, active and goal-oriented where failures and mistakes are not tolerated. Everyone is racing with time. A person who will sit comfortably in a foyer waiting for the sun to fade in the horizon considers lazy with no life’s direction and someone who loves to chase butterflies in the backyard categorizes as stupid and idiot. The 21 st century gives us a different definition of life. Technology rustles, making everything instant, walking through a quiet, windy road is no longer relaxing and listening to the whistling of the leaves is no longer melodious. Technology averted it and suggested other ways. If you want to hear songs, try Youtube, if you want to relax and play, try Facebook, if you want to stalk famous figures, try ...

I've finally grown up. Emotionally.  I know it's not a phenomenon to brag on at the start of another year, others might find it completely nonsense and somewhat funny, but it's an assertion with myself that I finally get rid of those petty trepidations. It's a personal confrontation. Like facing the mirror, looking at my real self, groping where those hazy feelings of burdens, fears, apprehensions and discomforts hid. I've finally outgrown the fascination towards astrology. Back then, each new year I would scramble to search the internet how the stars and all those ancient symbols of horoscope would influence my fate, I would make frequent trips to the national bookstore to find books on tarot card readings, dreams interpretation and Chinese astrology hoping to get clear explanations why my life gone haywire. It's so stupid to think that I entertained these "little madness" when it's in direct defiance to my Catholic faith. Posit...

Yesterday after work, I did another round of leisure walk along Taft Avenue because I was alone in the apartment and felt the silence in the house deafening, my colleagues were not yet home so I went out and did not know exactly where to go hehe! I felt tired going to Harrison Plaza or SM Manila so I just did some walking around the block. I walked back and forth at De La Salle-College of Saint Benilde, marveling at its splendid Christmas lights and observing students how they behaved, they were smoking heavily even the girls! But they looked so awesome anyway with their bling bling and expensive accessories hehe! I also began noticing the chic coffee shops and food chains around the area, I was not minding these establishments the past weeks because my thoughts flown elsewhere every time I passed here from LRT station, Starbucks Coffee, Seattle's Best Coffee, Coffee Bean Leaf, Kenny Rogers, Army Navy, Tropical Hut, Yellow Cab, Tokyo Tokyo, McDonalds, Mang Inasal, Jollibee...

How I love the thought of going home... I've never been so sentimental of missing home, but now that I am living in Metro Manila the thought of going home is more attractive than marveling at the lively Christmas lights in the Metropolis. I felt the sudden yearning of being at home and experience its warmth and comfort especially this Christmas season. Sometimes it's ridiculous to think that I am now appreciating the things I often neglected before. Life is ultra mysterious really, it makes us to turn 360 degrees in so many ways. Once I'd come across this inspiring quote "We appreciate things when they are done, we miss someone when they are gone, for it is always a mystery to realize the importance of something when it is already a memory". So true! So now I'll just have to make it a point to enjoy my life here and be happy and count the good things over the bad ones to avoid being tensed. I make ways to breath at the beautiful scenery in my env...

Yes, and that's literally... Few hours ago, I curled in the plastic mat and slept soundly. Laziness crept in. I love sleeping when there's a heavy downpour hehe! But more than describing the atmosphere of "after the rain", the line also signifies something beyond its literal meaning which has something to do with the emotional mess that has been overcome. Yesterday was slightly appalling but anyway it was just part of life's normal routine and it doesn't matter to me now, I was just disappointed towards something and that's all. Nothing to fuss about :-) It looks like the road trip I kept on contemplating for the past week will no longer possible but it's okay, I have to bend with the circumstances, that's way beyond my control. Maybe some other time when I have money hehehe! I plan to explore the Ilocos Region, Vigan for instance. It's one of my wishes to travel to Vigan or to Camarines Sur (I think these places are in the o...

So what are you up to at the moment folks? Me? Soooo many things crowded in my mind...career, emotions, weather, travelling abroad, thinking what job to take, where to live, haaay!Lots, lots of things.... Have you ever been in a situation where you felt like your mind is about to explode trying to figure out what's happening at the moment? One minute you're very confused, the next you felt like floating because of some very inspiring thoughts!Yeah hardly adolescent stuff haha!! Today is just another rainy day in Caloocan hehe!But I don't feel like curling myself inside the blanket, I want to write something, I want to unload this little "splashing" deep inside, or else it will grow into a huge bubble of whatever it is. So while composing words for this entry, I made some blog walking first at Bianca Gonzales (yes, she is a blogger too!) and read a very interesting post...about well, THIS IS LOVE , taken from the ad campaign of Nike.... I've ...

My online journal is at last flooded with happy entries, cheerful thoughts and beautiful sharing, a different level of excitement sprung from my system lately maybe because I am finally free from torment and feeling of rejection. My self-confidence is fully developed. Back in Davao, I wrote nothing but loneliness, pain, hidden remorse, rejection, humiliation and discontentment. Now, it seems I finally found what I am looking for. Yeah!!I've never been so happy in my life, what a fresh start! You know the feeling when you get so excited and can't help but be thrilled with everything in your environment? Prospect of a new career, meeting new people, creating new associates, building new friendships, anticipation of a great life ahead. Like you're genuinely enthusiastic and so happy because of that "something"? Yaaaay And that something made me to bounce in thrill every now and then haha! What a fantastic existence. So inspired!! But the road to happine...

Just got home from our road trip to Calamba, Laguna, thanks to Jerome and Anelyn, such a beautiful bonding moment. I had the best time with you guys! How I love this kind of leisure! It felt so good, as if I don't want to go home, I don't want to end the journey, I just love being on the road hehe! I had a full trust with Jerome when he is on the steering wheel, so even if he would increase the speed, I don't mind, I know I am safe in his hands. Why I love this little escapade? It's because I don't have to think much about life's complexities, about worries of what's coming ahead, I am living one day at a time, it's completely liberating!  But I know life in reality is not to be like this all the time that's why I am making the most of my freedom, enjoying every minute of it while waiting the progress of my job application. I want to savour every moment before immersing myself into the corporate life. This is what I love about going out...

The new wave of excitement of my life has just began :-D Yeah, finally got a courage to push myself a little too far and decided to take risks. I figured, if I continue keeping myself safe and stay in a comfortable environment, I would never experience the true zest of life. So this is it!! I left Davao last June 29, it was the feast day of St. Peter and Paul. After accompanying my mother to Ecoland terminal, I passed by at the San Pedro Cathedral and said prayers for my safe flight. Then went home and got some rest. with Janice and Lucy with Girlie and Lucy At 8:30pm, I woke up and started fixing everything. My MBA classmates, Lucy, Janice and Girlie came over and offered to accompany me to the airport. I was so touched with their kindness and devotion to our friendship. Aside from their presence, they also brought send-off gifts! It was announced that our flight will be delayed for one hour due to bad weather in Manila and my heart began to pound wildly. If th...

After so many years of making myself safe, refusing to take risks and just taking  slow steps of my journey, I finally reached to a point where I have to think hardly about where I should be heading to reach the intersection of my dreams. I'd lived a life of a crap, you know that stuff when you seemed forever welded in one corner unable to figure out what to do with your boring existence, everyday really sucks, but now, yeah, I felt the momentum, the energy, the excitement and all those fascinating ideas of discoveries. So far I had realized two of my earnest wishes in life. I'd finished my masters degree and traveled abroad for leisure! I felt lucky enough to accomplish those dreams without an anchor except prayers and strong determination. Now, I will be taking another challenge, another risk for the sake of another dream---to join the corporate world. Yeah! Ever since I was a teenager I always wanted to work in the real world, real field. You maybe wondering why...

I always begin my day with a cup of green tea or lemon juice, it makes my spirit float, it calms my mind. The soft morning air that often greets me in the street on my way to the office assures me that life in this present state is so fascinating and alluring..peaceful...relaxing and carefree. But lately, my morning no longer reflects the same degree of serenity. Somewhere beyond this quiet existence, lays a deep longing for a different life, a more meaningful one. Everytime I wake up and grab my towel, I felt this disconcerting pattern of confusion and worries and concerns rambling inside my system. I often take a deep, laboured a hard breath and wonder what I am missing, what's on the other side of the fence? Suddenly, this comfortable, peaceful environment that I am embracing for such a long time is no longer a peaceful haven. Suddenly I am craving for some spice in my life, a good balance of challenges and triumph, risks and courage, success and lessons to be learned, som...

My mind felt like a "push-over" nowadays, trying to drag me into a direction where I am very anxious to live with.  But this burning intention to get away, to move out, to search my fate, is increasing everyday that I felt I would be missing a huge part of my life if I would just let it go. Time is slipping so fast and yet I felt like my life is a complete mess, forever stuck in one corner, so I came up with this very difficult decision to "risk" my comfortable lifestyle. I realized I had wasted so many years already, missing opportunities because of my fear to take risks, I was too busy keeping myself safe that I forgot there’s a terrific life out there that needs to be explored. So now I cannot afford to let another day pass without figuring out what makes life so exciting and extraordinary on the other side of the road. The terrible idea of being thrown out, or being hurt, or being humiliated, or being rejected no longer terrifies me. I am str...

What a beautiful day!  I haven't uttered this phrase for such a long time, but today I feel great, yes, life has never been so wonderful and exciting! I don't know what it is, but right now I am inspired and very grateful with all the blessings I received, deep inside, I am truly happy no doubt about it. Next week will be our graduation day and from then on, I will be soaring high realizing my dreams and desires for a fulfilling life ahead to a new place where I know I would be reaching a new milestone.  Today, I am so amazed with this little creature, a brown butterfly. It hovers around me when I entered the office at first I am a little nervous because back in the province some folks acknowledged a butterfly as a symbol of death or sickness and all the morbid stuff they can think about. For a moment, I stood at the door glancing at the butterfly hoping it would go away. To my complete surprise it followed me inside, gosh so scary!! Until this afternoon, th...

I'd never felt such heavy emotions in my life only these past few weeks. Lots of emotional encounter happened, from my frustrating comprehensive exams to a bickering showdown with a friend who never valued me "pala" as a friend, well, at least I knew it finally. But life is absolutely fantastic and wonderful to be wasted on crap things. One thing I love about my personality is the way I handled stress and agonizing situations. Ever since in my life I never let ugly things intervene my happy dispositions. I just treated every bad encounter as part of personal growth, part of being human. Pain and sufferings are normal, it makes life worth living, it makes me able to sort out things logically. I am quite used to pain and sufferings so I have this very balanced view about my existence and my environment and I hope I could use it to my best advantage. I am tough enough to face tribulations in the future. Whatever happens, I know God is always there for me to guide...

It's the first week of April! Things did not go as I planned but that's God's well and I have no right to protest or complain but I am confident everything happens for a reason and whatever reason it is I know it's for my own good, no one can go against God's wishes, He knows what's best for us :-) But I am soaring high, full of hope and inspired more to dream big things in life. I am super excited with what's coming in the next few months and praying hard I can finally get what I want in life. Yesterday, while updating my diary entries in my laptop, I was surprised how I'd undergone several mishaps in the last few weeks, how I'd bounced back from humiliation and realized important things I need to accomplish. I finally made up my mind to explore the other side of the universe. I know I am capable of doing it. Tomorrow is another day, life is great to be wasted on useless things. God is so good all the time!

Irish Capuccino at Euro Cafe Yesterday, I went to Euro Café for a quick meal, I just want to relax and de-stress so I decided to drop by. Though this café house at the basement of Gaisano mall is surrounded with a play house with noisy children from all walks of life jostling inside the area and with their tiny voices screeching everywhere, I love resting there to indulge on my curiosity about children’s behavior. You see, I love discovering things even how trivial it is ^____^. So while waiting for my order: Gideon Grilled Chicken and Irish Cappucino , I observed them closely. Oh! How I love the noise of the children, it’s so exciting at the same time appalling, I could see the innocence of the world in their smile and laughter, it’s so fantastic to hear them scream and screech, chuckling on a senseless stuff, jumping and shoving as if they own the world while their parents struggled hard to prevent them from falling. But as I see it, the kids did not mind with their paren...

We should never get tired of fighting for love, for what we feel, but if we noticed that it's getting us nowhere then it's better to leave the battlefield and get hurt at once than continue bleeding fighting a war that cannot be won. For the past years, I'd kept holding on for that something , stretching my patience to wait for a beautiful moment to come. I'd watched myself wounded, humiliated, rejected, I endured pain, sacrifices because I was hoping one day, destiny might favour me. That one day did not come, my sacrifices did not pay off and as the year ended, I realized one thing, that in life we should never assume things wrongly, that pain is certain, just like death. I don't want to expect too much from my destiny this time, none of my expectations last year happened anyway, so this time, to minimize the level of disappointment, I would not expect anything. But I will continue hoping that one of these days I could get what I want in life. It's v...

I rarely wrote entries in my weekend diary category because there's nothing extraordinary to talk about every week, I hate raking my brain with something not worthy to share anyway. I got so tired spurting my distress and discomfort all over again, in fact I get used to it that I am no longer surprise why my weekend is painfully exhausting, mentally. But this week is slightly different, well, not that I suddenly realized I should update my blog, but there's something into it that I want to share, it's all about surprises and inspiration. It's the last week of November and I am always excited when December comes. N ovember 27, Tuesday . We attended a birthday party in honor of Dr. Amy Gravino who turned 50, her children and husband surprised her with a kiddie birthday party at Jollibee. It was so funny and very unique, all of us became young again, traveling back in time when nothing matters in the world except fun, laughter and foods!  I joined others in a ...

Carmina Villaroel and Zoren Legaspi on their wedding day at Fernbook Gardens. I loved the atmosphere of the event because I am always fascinated with a garden wedding reception and Cherry Blossoms motif! What Zoren did was a tough act to follow and I am wondering if there are still men left in this world who have the same devotion, level of commitment/fidelity and declaration of unconditional love toward their partners.  Last night, I was one of hundreds of girls in the Philippines who was extremely enthralled with the display of unconditional love of local actor, Zoren Legaspi, to his long-time partner, Carmina Villaroel. As I watched the episode of their civil wedding on TV and how Zoren planned the ceremony without Carmina suspecting it, I could not help but think how many men left in the world who have the same devotion and level of commitment as Zoren.  It was so fascinating and moving. Women in general loved surprises and longed to meet someone who could sweep...

So many reasons to thank God today... My fever and flu had finally subsided, I'd submitted my final requirements in the graduate school for last semester and had taken all the academic subjects for my masteral course. I've no large debt. So I won't start regretting the day why something did not come out so well with my other plans and longings or why God (still) did not grant my long-standing prayer. I'm tired asking myself why "that" thing could not be realized. It is simply exhausting mentally. I would not entertain self-defeating thoughts because it attracts bad energy.  I want to be grateful with life. I want to thank God for allowing me to wake up peacefully every morning to experience another day of excitement and wonders and see the beautiful sunshine and feel its warmth, I want to continue hoping that someday I can find what I am looking for. Life is a mixture of sadness and happiness that is a fact, a mystery and an opportunity, if t...